Blogging as an Outlet

It probably doesn't seem like it, but I am still incredibly uncomfortable with having all of this personal fertility stuff up on my blog.  I know I put it up here for anyone to read, but whenever I have a post where I've talked about getting pregnant, I've always tried to following up quickly with another post.  I don't like to focus on negativity.

My blog is a place where I reflect.  It takes me a quite while to get my thoughts down and the process of doing it is actually very calming for me.  I like to plan and think through things carefully.  After I have blogged about something, I feel like I can let it go a bit.  It may seem weird that I write about all of this stuff on my blog, but really I have a hard time even talking to my own mom in person about it.

When I see someone that I haven't seen for a while and they ask me how I am doing, I don't want to say something like, "I'm struggling with getting pregnant and it dominates my thoughts pretty regularly." but that's what I think sometimes.

My blog is an outlet for all of that right now.  I don't want it to turn into, "My Journey Getting Pregnant with Endometriosis," but this is unfortunately what I am going through at this stage in my life.  Hopefully one day my blog will turn into one of those mommy blogs where I obsess over baby monitor choices, discuss sleep training methods, and get excited about potty-training progress.