Good Days and Bad Days

Yesterday started out Baaad, yes with a capital B.  One of my more demanding students this year injured some safety patrol and then came in the classroom screaming and out of control.  Then, about 5-10 minutes later several students ran to me at the door telling me about a weapon that had been brought into the classroom.  It wasn't scary because that student is not violent at all and there were absolutely no violent intentions, but it was quite a way to start the day.  On Wednesdays, I get one planning break at the very beginning of the day and that was taken up dealing with the first two situations.  Needless to say, we just tried to have a calm day after that.  I'll admit we watched a Reading Rainbow on trees that only matched up with the standard I was teaching about 75% of the way.

Then during lunch, I got a call from my mom who was waiting at my house for the delivery guys to bring the couches for the basement.  Apparently they didn't think it was going to fit down the stairs to the basement so they wanted my approval for a waiver that said that they would not be held liable if the couch knocked and holes in the wall and/or was broken in the process.  I went ahead and had her sign it because I was kind of desperate to get the couches in on a day that my mom could be there and I wouldn't have to take off work. I was really sweating it because I was pretty sure this was going to thing number three. Then, I got the text...

It was in with NO holes in the walls and NO damage to the couch.  I'm pretty sure we'll be selling them with the house though. :)

Here's a picture of the couches in the newly finished basement.

I stayed late at school, got a bunch of grading done, and then called a friend who I used to work with that could give me some advice on some situations I was dealing with.  It was great to vent, but more awesome to come up with some possible solutions even if they only work temporarily.

Before going to bed, I said a prayer where I mentioned something that I was thankful for in each one of my current students.  It helped me realize just how good of a class I have this year.  Even though I have some interesting personalities in my class, it will be OKAY and we are going to have an awesome year.

Today was a much better day. :)

Oh and one more thing that made today just that much more awesome.  Doug called and told me that he would be able to come home this weekend and SEE ME!!!!!  It will have been 18 days since I have seen him in person (the longest by far in our marriage).  I have missed him SO much and can't wait to see him TOMORROW even though I know it will only be for the weekend.

Random Mumblings

Recently...

-Doug is traveling. For 6 weeks. I've made it through 3 weeks so far. Reception is spotty so we don't get to talk much. I've been really proud of myself for being disciplined and going to sleep before 10 pm (most of the time). I've woken up EVERY morning at 5 am for work. Every night since he been gone, I've woken up randomly around 2 or 3 am. I just couldn't get to bed again this time. It's lonely.

-School started. 26 kiddos so far. The majority of this group loves to talk. But not about school. I'm working hard to change this into something productive. The beginning of the school year with a new class is like training a puppy, scratch that... litter of puppies. It's going to take time and it's a lot of work. I love them to death, but I miss the familiarity and discipline of my last dog, I mean uh class. Did that make sense?

Of course not. It's now 4 in the morning. I'm pretty sure I have these same feelings every single year.

What else, well...

-The carpet is in and the basement is basically done. It looks really good. The furniture is being delivered next week. For some reason, I haven't been able to get excited about it. It just makes my empty house feel emptier these days.

-I got to go to the temple with my sister Heather and her family this last weekend. Their stake was having a temple day. My parent's stake is having one this weekend. I haven't been to the temple two consecutive times this close together since I got married... over 6 years ago.

-Got the hospital bill or rather "Explanation of Benefits" in the mail yesterday. The whole thing cost over $20,000! I paid $30. Are doctors paid a salary or do they get bonuses for performing expensive surgeries? ...Thankful for good health insurance.

-I'm still on this darn birth control that my doctor prescribed to help with the endo. Having to take this dumb little pill every day is rather disheartening. I keep on telling myself that this is a means to an end and that I should be able to see the end in sight, but when I look at how much longer I have, it seems like an eternity.

-I think it must be messing with my hormones. I feel emotionally dead inside at times and other times I have to hold back sobs after hearing a story on the radio or watching a movie. Seriously, this last weekend I had to hold back tears while watching "The Living Scriptures: Nephi Builds a Boat." I'm not kidding. I feel messed up.

In an attempt to be happy, I've bought the ingredients for monkey bread and I'm taking it to school tomorrow to share with the teachers. Feeding myself and others yummy food will hopefully help me be happy. I'm really trying here.